-=-23/2/21 -- 00:54 -=-

when u think about poop in a certain way, wchich is the way it goes through an organisms body, doesn't it somehow become less desgusting?
like, if u just imagine some food getting chemically processed in the digestive tract, like some kind of natural goopy dirt, it's really just that, natural goopy dirt. ofc that still doesn't make it pleasant, but if ur generally fine with touching potting compost, which i believe most people are, then, rationall, u also shouldn't have much difficulty with touching excrements of the living.

-=-16/2/21 -- 19:08 -=-

a better way of saying "you are not alone":

"we are alone"

-=-15/2/21 -- 23:20 -=-

i have come to a point where frequent reboots of my internal, subjective experience are occurring. my entire world is changing rapidly with everyday. i don't have a solid foundation within this reality. at least not by myself.

here's a message to all of my friends who are reading this (u know T◡T):
i have come to the conclusion that my own existence feels so fragile and hazy that it must entirely rest upon ur shoulders. i want u to carry my burden as much as u can, just as i carry urs.
at the end of the day, i don't know what i want, but right now, i can say with more confidence

than anything else, that u are all my most precious things. and i can say this with such confidence, because i know that, should i lose any of u, i will also lose part of myself. whether u are nah or fern, been there for years or months, u are carrying this burden. and i need u to. otherwise i will just turn into the dust inside of the lost hikers boots.
in this grand confusion i, have nothing.
just know this.

-=-8/2/21 -- 02:19 -=-

theory:
anarcho-primitivists are 4-dimensional beings.

because:
-it is widely considered to be a far-left ideology, yet is at the same time the most regressive of them all, meaning that they actually exist on some kind of z-axis on the basic political spectrum
-they are progressing towards the past, seemingly a scientific paradox, but they can just do that, i think that's incredible
-they want to live "off the grid"
-they want to "reconnect" with nature, and

nature includes octopi, and molluscs would've opened the portal to the end dimension millions of years ago alreday, had they taken over as the planets ruling organism
-they are magical giga-wizards